Poems – Twinkle Johar

I could feel something,
Not a void like other days,
Sitting on the wet grass,
Gazing at the stars,
I could feel something.
A longing to hold myself,
Desperate to shout,
But something held me back,
Was I lazy to speak up ?
I was tired,
I could feel something,
Not a void like other days,
When I’m alone in crowd,
When I’m deaf amidst a chaos around,
I feel a void, all empty there,
Someone keeps screaming inside,
Am I lazy to hear ?
I am tired,
But this is common,
I could feel something else today,
Something I was craving to tell you,
Not a void like other days,
Today,
I could feel the heaviness and not the emptiness,
Maybe the heaviness of the emptiness.
Agonized I was to take it out,
I wondered how to do it,
Never had I done that before?
I did.
But this time, it was something else.
This time I couldn’t cry,
Was I lazy to ?
I was tired.
I couldn’t cry, but wanted to.
I could feel something,
Not a void like other days,
So I chose not to ignore the scream this time,
Tired,
I tried
Only to hear my cry to cry.